I’m sorry it’s been a couple of months. I panicked. Only one friend thinks creating this website is a good idea. When we had a fight, I just stopped.

Only a few people know what happened to me in Eno River State Park. All of them think this website is a bad idea. Even the friend that picked me up that terrible night begged me to let this go. For them, either I had a mental break while I ran from a guy trying to assault me — and for them that’s the most likely option — or the people trying to hide whatever is in there are not the type I should be pissing off. 

I’m terrified of the latter because I know what I saw.

My oldest friend is the only one who believes me. Our mothers have been best friends since college so I’ve known him my whole life.

He’s the one who said he’d set up the Discord channel. He’s the one who has helped me with the website and the chicken wire spiral. He’s the one person I can always count on.

Then she surfaced… again.

His ex-girlfriend hates me.

I know it’s weird to write on here about my oldest friend’s ex-girlfriend, but I didn’t want you to think I was blowing this off. He told me to write about it if I thought it would help you understand that I’m serious about figuring this out. I only took a break because of our fight. This is what happened…

She was his girlfriend in high school. Then on and off in college. And then she recently moved back to town and decided to mess with him. He knows I think she’s bad news so this is nothing new to him. But whenever she starts up with him, she makes sure he spends as little time with me as possible. She’s the jealous type.

I’ve told her a million times we’re just friends, but she doesn’t believe me. She’s high maintenance. I’m t-shirts and jeans. I don’t know why she feels threatened.

When I told him to stay away from her, we had a big fight. They got back together. That’s when I stopped posting.

My friend and I made up last week. He promised to help me with this no matter what. He’s just not telling her about it. 

So here we go again… Instead of using Discord right away, we decided to just add a newsletter option. That way you can get an email every time there’s a new post. Anything you figure out and want to tell me, just leave a comment.

If anyone is still reading this, thanks for sticking with me… and understanding.